I Am Not In A Bad Mood - Shay Fishman

Oxford Dictionary says “mood” means a temporary state of mind or feeling. 
Well this is no mood I feel, no mood my sister feels, no mood my brother feels. It’s more like we are running along a hamster wheel. 
How many times I’ve said enough, I carry an umbrella handcuffed. All I know is I’ve felt unsuited, like the rotten apple buried beneath the big shiny red ones, worrying I’m contaminating them.
People could say I’m too dark, too dour, or too bleak, but I’m just being real with chemicals that need a tweak.
I can say it gets better and not have to lie, but getting there takes a few tries. Setbacks will come to try to disrupt your ability to tranquilize these feelings that you hope stay away like the brown bear trying to steal the honey off of your challah. 

I know that everything is temporary, but the most permanent thing in our individual lives are the meaningful moments we collect that one day add up to a pretty good life.

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